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So go me-- I skipped both physics class and colloquium today. But I was feeling really awful earlier so it kind of made sense at the time.
Tomorow I am going to have to crack down and do all kinds of homework. I have to study for my history test do all my Rel and Cos homework and do math homework as well as physics! Bah to school. I'm not cut out for this learning stuff.
Ate dinner alone again today. Skipped lunch. But I ate too much this evening too. I think I am starting to eat too much. Well, maybe not starting to. But its pretty hard to stop. And its even harder to get my ass out of bed to ever go exercise to get some of this fat and calories off. I am going to *try* to do it tomorow, exercise that is. But who knows. I'm just having trouble finding a reason why I should do any of this. It just doesn't seem worth it. I don't see a reason to not eat whenever the hell I feel like it, or to ever go to the gym, because it doesnt appear to me as though it will actually make a difference.
Today was kind of a crappy day as usual. It's getting bad when having a bad day is a normal thing. I want to be happy. I just don't know how to or how to make myself try. Sometimes I don't know why I should bother trying.

A dream!

Ok, I just woke up (yeah its 11:30 and I just woke up) Anyway, I had a dream I wanted to write down.
I dreamt that they were only playing Children of Dune in movie theatres and not on tv. So for some reason I went with Emily to see it, but we had had a fight or something and we weren't really talking. The movie theatre was pretty crowded (suprising for a sci fi movie like Children of Dune). And then I saw a guy who looked a great deal like the actor who is playing Leto II in the movie. And he had this thing, a big metal glove, it was from BtVS, the glove of Minegon (cant spell it), and for some reason I thought it made sense that he had the glove, and I was all excited because he was the guy from teh movie. I kept wanting to go talk to him, but Emily kept telling me it wasnt him. So I guess we watched some of the movie, and then I think there was an intermission, and the guy who plays Paul was there, but he was like in character or osmething and he was talking about Dune stuff to people. He mentioned something I didnt understand so I went over and talked to him. He explained it to me but he was like stuttering or forgetful or something; I forget. Then I was out in the halls and I really had to go to the bathroom, and I asked the guy in charge of the movie theatre where they were, and he was just like, oh theyre around somewhere, in a restaurant or something. So I ran likeall over the theatre. And there were like 4 or 5 Italian restaurants and everything had red carpet. I couldnt find the bathrooms, but eventually I did but I missed part of the movie. Then I saw the guy I thought was Leto II with a big long coat on (to hide the Glove of Mineghon?) and he was talking to two guys, and either I asked him, orsome other way he said he wasn't the guy. But he looked different from the guy I saw in the movie theatre so I didn't care. Then I went back into the theatre and squeezed into a seat by Emily. And I was wondering why in the hell they put it in movie theatres, but it must have been a smart idea because it was packed in there.
Alright thats about the majority of it.
I'm going to go now have a Thursday.