ghanimasun | feeling sort of crappy

I'm not depressed, but I'm sort of sad or lonely, and unhappy. I feel slightly lonely and very frustrated. i desperately want to move out as soon as possible, but money has conspired against me to make it harder for me. Also I'm not seeing a lot of stuff I can afford that's available. Getting the new car has been great but it is obviously expensive and I just discovered my car insurance has more than doubled in price! So that is a big set back in trying to get a new place. I just don't know what to do and I just feel so frustrated and desperate and shitty. I feel so powerless. But I'm going to keep trying. I'm willing to go even farther in debt if I move out sooner, so I can be alone and have some sanity and pay it off there. Yeah I'll be lonely there eventually, but I will also have some sanity and clarity and tons of freedom. I feel like I'm just putting off everything else that's useful until I move (like exercising, studying for GRE's, etc).
This weekend I went to see the new Harry Potter movie. Also I visited my uncle in the hospital, he seems to be doing well, which was good to see. And I somehow seem to have purchased the last Harry Potter book. How could that have happened, I wonder? Oh well, I have that to keep me distracted for the next week or so.