bitching

[ghanimasun]

i hate the computer program word perfect!!! i dont know how to use it and i cant do anything in it! i wish my computer had word. i cant make any simple things work in word perfect and it is doing seriously totally random ass shit. very frustrating.
also i hate that my mom never turns off the damned tv!! how many completely fucking mindless game shows or sitcoms can someone watch? (my computer can only get online in the living room. so frustrating!) i feel stupider every for having seen five minutes of any of them.
also i have a cold. my throat hurts all the time and i have no strength and my mind is somewhat fuzzy. my jaw hurts and my ears hurt too.
i wanted to get my resume all done tonight. but i am so not going to get it done tonight. fucking wordperfect has me all frustrated.
and now my mom, who cant stop watching tv for five minutes, is watching some special about soldiers from iraq who have brain damage. and thats got me all depressed/distracted.
okay new goal: have resume done by the end of the damned week.
i am so digusted by myself right now. i am so disappointed in myself. i am so stressed, angry, depressed, lonely and desperate.
i left a message for the therapist finally, but no one has called me back. i am going to call again tomorow because i need some help. i dont know where alot of my stress is coming from. i think i am heaping alot of it on myself.
im going to try to relax tonight and not stress about the resume. cos stressing isnt helping.

Comments

[mechers.livejournal.com]

Ok, good...stop with the resume, good that you know when to walk from this. And good on you for calling the shrink. Take those good things away with you and try to focus on them instead of the rest of it. I know it's hard, but just tell yourself good job for doing those little things.