ghanimasun | a thursday

today we found out that our temp jobs at the boring place where we work, are not going to be ending as soon as they had anticipated (a few weeks) and should be lasting for a while yet. a few months still. i am very grateful to hear that. because, while i dont love the job or anything like that, i love hte money it gives me. and i need all the money for all the bills current and forthcoming (that's right--the car). travis and i went shopping today and spent money, but on needed stuff mostly. i felt fat when trying on clothes and everything. i feel fat, and i look really fat. i am fat. that is something i'm going to have to work on, but like everything else, its going to be hard. i've never actually lost weight before, so i have to figure out how to do it, and get myself motivated and dedicated.
tomorow battlestar galactica is on, and i will try to write my thoughts about it someitme. but ill probably get drunk again tomorow night, as i have been getting about every other night the past week. yeah, thats not healthy, i know it. (and its probably not helping my weight problem either!) but i am a weak, weak person, and thats all there is to it. plus, as much as i would have never ever believed it a few years ago---i like beer!
all in all, today was a pretty average day. except for the fact that i got new clothes and went out for once, which was nice! this weekend, and hell, this whole damned month are looking to be pretty average.
average isn't what i want.