ghanimasun | stressed, worried

well i bought a car yesterday. but that's a whole other story.
now we are just waiting for someone to come by and take our freaking apartment. (literally right now that's all we are doing. someone was supposed to come by over an hour ago to see it, but she never showed. some one else might come by later today.) we are about half packed, and pretty much everything is cleaned up. We can't really do anything now except wait for someone to actually come to see the apartment, then hope they like it. then they have to apply and get approved. then we will finally be out of here (oh yeah and we have to get some things finished up at the car dealers, but they wont have time to do that until monday!!!! argh!)

and i just called my mom and she said she didnt think my grandpa would last too much longer. they are moving him to a private room, and she basically said they are just putting off/waiting for the inevitable. this is so frustrating. i might not even make it home before he dies. fuck, i might not make it home in time for the funeral at this rate!!! i am so frustrated and stressed! i just want to get rid of the apartment, get the car fixed and leave.....TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!! All this waiting around for things to get into place is annoying, when driving accross is going to take another like 3-5 days on top of everything.

i am so frustrated, sick, worried, stressed, anxious and even angry.
i just don't know what to do, what to think, or how to feel. i just want to go home!