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ghanimasun) wrote2005-06-05 09:31 pm
ghanimasun) wrote2005-06-05 09:31 pm
hot
today is so hot and sticky.
i love the weekends, anything that gets me away from nco. over the weekend i am ok b/c i dont have to go there, but by monday i'm like--why the hell didnt i look for another job over the weekend. i dont undrestand why didnt do more to escape that stupid ass place!
i didnt do one shred of exercise this weekend. and its made me feel horrible.
i found out emily was in town saturday night online, she invited me to ice cream with her mom. it was okay but it didnt leave me feeling very good. she told me all these stories of this awesome stuff shes been doing and is about to do. i didnt feel like i could open up as much b/c her mom was there. then her mom got tired and they left. not that she has to, but she didnt seem interested in talking ot me anymore or anything like that. i guess i was just sort of disappointed by the whole experience. it left me feeling bad about my SHIT of a life and unwanted by emily. she didnt tell me she was coming in and only happened to talk to me online because she needed to show her mom how to do something on IM. bleh. who knows. i'm probably just being really oversensitive about some of it. i hate my job, i hate my life, i hate my body.
at least i have some distractions in life.
we'll see what happens this week. if anything happens.
i love the weekends, anything that gets me away from nco. over the weekend i am ok b/c i dont have to go there, but by monday i'm like--why the hell didnt i look for another job over the weekend. i dont undrestand why didnt do more to escape that stupid ass place!
i didnt do one shred of exercise this weekend. and its made me feel horrible.
i found out emily was in town saturday night online, she invited me to ice cream with her mom. it was okay but it didnt leave me feeling very good. she told me all these stories of this awesome stuff shes been doing and is about to do. i didnt feel like i could open up as much b/c her mom was there. then her mom got tired and they left. not that she has to, but she didnt seem interested in talking ot me anymore or anything like that. i guess i was just sort of disappointed by the whole experience. it left me feeling bad about my SHIT of a life and unwanted by emily. she didnt tell me she was coming in and only happened to talk to me online because she needed to show her mom how to do something on IM. bleh. who knows. i'm probably just being really oversensitive about some of it. i hate my job, i hate my life, i hate my body.
at least i have some distractions in life.
we'll see what happens this week. if anything happens.