today is my birthday.

[ghanimasun]

today is my birthday.
was it the worst birthday ever? nah, it could be a lot worse. maybe the dullest un birrthday ever.
the loneliest.
heres what i did on my birthday:
got up, went to nco, came back, ate, went to eckerd, came back ate, got online.
damn thats a good birthday. how many people that i actually saw today wished me a happy birthday? three, maybe four.
*sigh*
there was absolutely nothing special about today. it was sort of depressing for a birthday. and lonely.
i work all day tomorow. i work saturday. i work sunday.
all this working prevents me from really thinking or feeling much. i just go through the days to get to the end of the week. i just keep going to get to the end. then it starts over again.
my jobs are so repetitive. one thing i did enjoy about school that i am very much lacking in my jobs is that there was a sense of accomplishment and moving on. like you did something then you moved on and did something else. you didnt do the exact same thing every day. advancement. not repetition and stagnation.
i am completely stagnate.
just standing still, barely making any money to show for it.

what a lonely day.

happy birthday to me.