ghanimasun | depression

Travis is leaving on Saturday. We are not breaking up or anything. He doesnt like it here, here can't find a job and he's unhappy. He's moving back. After about a week of going back and forth on what iw as going to do, he asked his parents if it would be a strain if i came too, and they said yeah it probably would be. So i just sort of let that decide for me, and so I'm staying here without him. I'm pretty upset about everything. I try to see good points, and they're there sometimes but I'm still very unhappy. I went to part time at my job, I hate it. I am looking for another job. But i have no purpose or desires or plans in life. *sigh* I feel so empty and boring. And hopeless.
Enjoying spending time with Travis though, but sad that I won't be seeing him for how many weeks afterwards. My main plans are, after he leaves, to try to make/save money, and distract myself with tv and games and movies and books as much as possible.
I'll probably write more on here once I'm alone.
I love Travis.