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ghanimasun) wrote2011-08-10 10:59 pm
ghanimasun) wrote2011-08-10 10:59 pm
i was outside today for more than 10 minutes
So I've thought about making posts on here nearly every day lately. Obviously I have not made them. I talk myself out of it or I just don't feel like it when I actually get the chance to sit down and write. Usually I don't think it's worth it to make the post, because it's really trivial stuff. Or I just don't think it's worth sharing.
Not sure whether it's worth it to not make any posts or to make small little posts that are only a small part of what I really wanted to write.
Regardless here's a little list of stuff I have thought about writing about before, but haven't.
-Have been having frequent dreams about Travis (my ex) lately. I don't know why, and I wish my brain would stop fucking with me. Also I don't really know how I'm supposed to 'get over' him. Are there specific things I should do? Mostly I just try not to think about him and that's about it. When I do think about him I'm able to stay practical about it sometimes, but occasionally I'll get really emotional and just feel very sad and lonely about the whole thing. Those are about the strongest emotions I can feel about it. I don't hate him, but I don't love him. I don't trust him at all anymore and I have no desire to be with him again. But that doesn't mean I don't miss him and I just feel a lot of sadness when I think about good times. Have also thought about texting him multiple times (when drunk) but so far have not actually done so. Even though part of me wants to reach out to him, another part of me knows it is stupid and not worth it whatsoever.
-I have no idea why some of the textsfrommoya I post are more popular than others. Some of the ones I find particularly clever or funny only get a handful of notes, but then others that I just thought were okay end up getting a lot of notes (a lot for that tumblr anyway, most of them don't get over 30 notes period). So I basically have no idea what's going to be funny or popular or know how to make ones people will like better. I don't worry about it too much, but it's just strange. Mostly I just make ones that entertain me and people can submit their own if they have better ideas.
-True Blood is sort of a stupid show. I mean, I watch it, I've watched every episode and I'm going to continue to watch it. But some of it is so cheesy and silly. And some of it is so gross and disturbing. And I can't really get too invested in it. Also I don't give a fuck about a lot of the characters (Alcide, I'm looking at you. Also Alcide=not hot). Lafayette is my favorite, even though his plotline is somewhat boring this season.
-Torchwood Miracle Day is like regular Torchwood (plot holes are a way of life) minus most of the regular characters, with extra super disturbing bits (the thing that happened at the end of the last episode? was. very. disturbing.) (spoiler free right there, you see?). I am finally able to love Gwen at least; although I'm sure if I watched older episodes I'd still be annoyed at some of the things she did (like cheating with Owen then drugging Rhys when she confesses). But I love her now anyway and she is gorgeous. And Jack Harkness has to be one of the most emotionally fucked up characters to ever exist when you really think about his history.
I have been drinking a lot lately and I was inebriated when I wrote half of this.
Not sure whether it's worth it to not make any posts or to make small little posts that are only a small part of what I really wanted to write.
Regardless here's a little list of stuff I have thought about writing about before, but haven't.
-Have been having frequent dreams about Travis (my ex) lately. I don't know why, and I wish my brain would stop fucking with me. Also I don't really know how I'm supposed to 'get over' him. Are there specific things I should do? Mostly I just try not to think about him and that's about it. When I do think about him I'm able to stay practical about it sometimes, but occasionally I'll get really emotional and just feel very sad and lonely about the whole thing. Those are about the strongest emotions I can feel about it. I don't hate him, but I don't love him. I don't trust him at all anymore and I have no desire to be with him again. But that doesn't mean I don't miss him and I just feel a lot of sadness when I think about good times. Have also thought about texting him multiple times (when drunk) but so far have not actually done so. Even though part of me wants to reach out to him, another part of me knows it is stupid and not worth it whatsoever.
-I have no idea why some of the textsfrommoya I post are more popular than others. Some of the ones I find particularly clever or funny only get a handful of notes, but then others that I just thought were okay end up getting a lot of notes (a lot for that tumblr anyway, most of them don't get over 30 notes period). So I basically have no idea what's going to be funny or popular or know how to make ones people will like better. I don't worry about it too much, but it's just strange. Mostly I just make ones that entertain me and people can submit their own if they have better ideas.
-True Blood is sort of a stupid show. I mean, I watch it, I've watched every episode and I'm going to continue to watch it. But some of it is so cheesy and silly. And some of it is so gross and disturbing. And I can't really get too invested in it. Also I don't give a fuck about a lot of the characters (Alcide, I'm looking at you. Also Alcide=not hot). Lafayette is my favorite, even though his plotline is somewhat boring this season.
-Torchwood Miracle Day is like regular Torchwood (plot holes are a way of life) minus most of the regular characters, with extra super disturbing bits (the thing that happened at the end of the last episode? was. very. disturbing.) (spoiler free right there, you see?). I am finally able to love Gwen at least; although I'm sure if I watched older episodes I'd still be annoyed at some of the things she did (like cheating with Owen then drugging Rhys when she confesses). But I love her now anyway and she is gorgeous. And Jack Harkness has to be one of the most emotionally fucked up characters to ever exist when you really think about his history.
I have been drinking a lot lately and I was inebriated when I wrote half of this.
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I'm sorry I suck with the not-talking-to-you-anymore thing. At least when I fiiiiiinallly mooooove, we'll have lots of time to catch up. :D
TW? Disturbing? Surely you jest! Torchwood is a paragon of Anglo-American virtue! It represents all the best parts of human nature. But seriously I'm not sure what you found disturbing exactly, partly b/c there were a bunch of disturbing bits, and also b/c nothing in that episode made any sense and I stopped watching it closely about a third of the way through. Was it the thing where...the person...said that word? Or the thing with the...boxes? Or the thing where RTD continues to make characters composed of the worst right wing stereotypes without having any discernable point to his insultingly obvious political commentary? I mean have a point to it or make it subtle or both. Just make it so I can stop rolling my eyes. Anyway I have a theory about what the boxes are for but I don't know who's behind it and what benefit they're getting from what I think they're gathering. Also has Jack lost weight? Also, also, I miss the old TW, where they mostly shot guns a lot and Jack died every other episode. Having a show premise where no one can die is kinda stupid if you think about it. I mean there's ways to make it compelling, but this season isn't doing those things. It's so much easier to create exciting television with a bunch of guns and deaths (how American of me!). This concept is just a little too subtle for sloppy execution. To be good it has to be done perfectly. You know?
With Travis, I just...you're doing the right things, unfortunately. How you're doing it is about the best it can be done, I think. I hope your dreams aren't too disturbing, at least. I had a few about Dee that were really awful, and a few that were so sweetly nostalgic I can't bring myself to try to forget them. But mostly they were about me working through things and she was just there in the dream as a prop to help with that.
Hugs all around.
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I was just super disturbed how they ended the last episode. (Did you see that one? I don't want to accidentally spoil you for it) It was rather horrifying. I can't really keep up with the politics that the show thinks would happen in the US. I just can't buy a lot of it, but I'm obviously going along for the ride regardless. I definitely think it's a sloppy execution of what could be a really interesting story.
And yeah, Jack looks way skinnier in MD than he did in any of the previous Torchwoods. I don't know why he is so much skinnier. I prefer him not to look so skinny because it just makes me feel like he looks sick and then I feel all worried about him. /very rational
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Thanks though :)
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I'm also good at talking myself out of commenting.
It's a bad habit.
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Thanks for actually commenting this once. I know how hard it can be, I talk myself out of commenting on a daily basis!
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