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ghanimasun) wrote2003-07-31 10:47 am
ghanimasun) wrote2003-07-31 10:47 am
so this is what it's like in pennsylvania
Well, well, well...I'm back in the familiar state of PA. I've been here nearly a week and it has gone so fast; it barely feels like its been that long at all. My plane rides home went smoothly, and it was somewhat interesting...but nothing thrilling.
It was somewhat sad leaving Georgia on Friday morning. I gave some people hugs, and said goodbye to them for possibly the last time ever. But I'm not in a mood to really go on about that now.
Since I've been home I've been going through all my clothes, organizing them and such. And I discovered that I have *way* too many clothes. It's a little annoying. Also, I have realized (though I pretty much knew it before) that I definitely gained weight in Georgia. Clothes that fit me before I left, no longer are really comfortable at all. So on that note I have started going to the gym with my cousin. We've only gone twice so far, but I'm hoping we can keep it up steadily until we go back to school. I'd like to get rid of this weight I gained before I go back, but I don't know if I'll be able to. I don't think I've ever noticeably lost weight on purpose before. So I don't really know how to do it.
I've been home a week and thats really all I've done. That and hang out with my cousins a lot. The activity I had in Athens is making me want to be active now and not want to just sit around all the time. Although most of what I've done with them has been rent movies. Which is better than nothing at least.
Since I've been home I've found myself somewhat avoiding talking with other people. Cece (my roommate in Athens) emailed me on Monday and I still haven't responded, I always somewhat dread getting on IM for too long that someone will IM me and I'll have to talk to them, I am not trying ot contact anyone about info about our house for next year, I'm not trying to talk to Jess anymore than I have before, and as for Emrys, well he just got back from Puerto Rico, so I haven't had much of a chance to not talk to him, and Emily's really unreachable, and she should be home soon anyway. I do sometimes wish I could talk to one or two of the people from Georgia though.
I don't know why I've been doing this, but I keep pushing it all off, saying to myself that I'll talk to everyone tomorow night, or the night after that. Why is it so difficult for me to want to talk to these people? I don't entirely know.
Hmm...Perhaps part of the reason that it seems like time has flown ever since I got home is because everything here is so familiar and static. I know everything here, its all the same; there's nothing new and unusual to do or discover, anywhere or about anyone. At least not that I can see anyway. It used to take so much longer for a week to go by in Georgia, and here a week has gone by in the blink of an eye. One annoying thing about being home is that I revert back to my old ways of doing nothing, accomplishing nothing. It's hard to try to break out of that.
Random topic change, I have all this money I made in Georgia, and that is a bad thing. Why? Well its bad because now I have all this money I made in Georgia that I can spend freely! Now I can't go like buy a new car, but I feel like I have all this power and freedom now (well that is also due to the fact that I finally have a car again). But there are so many (unnecessary) things that I want to buy. Although nothing really is necessary; I have everything I truely need in life, possession-wise. But alas, this money has filled me with a newfound desire to have things. Lots of pretty shiney new things all for me! Geeze, the way I'm going I'll run out of money before I even go back to school. Is that bad?
Hm, yeah it probably is.
Is it bad that I don't care?
Yeah, I'd imagine so.
But that's not going to make me care.
Take for example the fact that I am seriously thinking about going right now to see if I can get a cd player installed in my car. I also need and want to buy a really nice manual camera for my photography class. Luckily, as I have said, I really don't need any more clothes, but that probably wont' stop me from buying one or two more things for school. Oh yes, and school! I need to buy stuff to decorate my room, as well as buy all my books. Although, the fact that I have no science or math classes should lead to cheaper book buying. (Eek, I just thought about the GRE's and Grad school again! Ack! Panic! Stop that! Stop thinking about it and think about all the pretty new things you're going to buy....ahhhh, better). Plus if I buy a cd player for my car, I'm going to want more cds!
Alright. I think I'm done. With that rant anyway.
I guess I'll stop now, as its getting relatively late and I wanted to actually get some stuff done today. I just really hope I can accomplish all that I want to do in the next few weeks.
It was somewhat sad leaving Georgia on Friday morning. I gave some people hugs, and said goodbye to them for possibly the last time ever. But I'm not in a mood to really go on about that now.
Since I've been home I've been going through all my clothes, organizing them and such. And I discovered that I have *way* too many clothes. It's a little annoying. Also, I have realized (though I pretty much knew it before) that I definitely gained weight in Georgia. Clothes that fit me before I left, no longer are really comfortable at all. So on that note I have started going to the gym with my cousin. We've only gone twice so far, but I'm hoping we can keep it up steadily until we go back to school. I'd like to get rid of this weight I gained before I go back, but I don't know if I'll be able to. I don't think I've ever noticeably lost weight on purpose before. So I don't really know how to do it.
I've been home a week and thats really all I've done. That and hang out with my cousins a lot. The activity I had in Athens is making me want to be active now and not want to just sit around all the time. Although most of what I've done with them has been rent movies. Which is better than nothing at least.
Since I've been home I've found myself somewhat avoiding talking with other people. Cece (my roommate in Athens) emailed me on Monday and I still haven't responded, I always somewhat dread getting on IM for too long that someone will IM me and I'll have to talk to them, I am not trying ot contact anyone about info about our house for next year, I'm not trying to talk to Jess anymore than I have before, and as for Emrys, well he just got back from Puerto Rico, so I haven't had much of a chance to not talk to him, and Emily's really unreachable, and she should be home soon anyway. I do sometimes wish I could talk to one or two of the people from Georgia though.
I don't know why I've been doing this, but I keep pushing it all off, saying to myself that I'll talk to everyone tomorow night, or the night after that. Why is it so difficult for me to want to talk to these people? I don't entirely know.
Hmm...Perhaps part of the reason that it seems like time has flown ever since I got home is because everything here is so familiar and static. I know everything here, its all the same; there's nothing new and unusual to do or discover, anywhere or about anyone. At least not that I can see anyway. It used to take so much longer for a week to go by in Georgia, and here a week has gone by in the blink of an eye. One annoying thing about being home is that I revert back to my old ways of doing nothing, accomplishing nothing. It's hard to try to break out of that.
Random topic change, I have all this money I made in Georgia, and that is a bad thing. Why? Well its bad because now I have all this money I made in Georgia that I can spend freely! Now I can't go like buy a new car, but I feel like I have all this power and freedom now (well that is also due to the fact that I finally have a car again). But there are so many (unnecessary) things that I want to buy. Although nothing really is necessary; I have everything I truely need in life, possession-wise. But alas, this money has filled me with a newfound desire to have things. Lots of pretty shiney new things all for me! Geeze, the way I'm going I'll run out of money before I even go back to school. Is that bad?
Hm, yeah it probably is.
Is it bad that I don't care?
Yeah, I'd imagine so.
But that's not going to make me care.
Take for example the fact that I am seriously thinking about going right now to see if I can get a cd player installed in my car. I also need and want to buy a really nice manual camera for my photography class. Luckily, as I have said, I really don't need any more clothes, but that probably wont' stop me from buying one or two more things for school. Oh yes, and school! I need to buy stuff to decorate my room, as well as buy all my books. Although, the fact that I have no science or math classes should lead to cheaper book buying. (Eek, I just thought about the GRE's and Grad school again! Ack! Panic! Stop that! Stop thinking about it and think about all the pretty new things you're going to buy....ahhhh, better). Plus if I buy a cd player for my car, I'm going to want more cds!
Alright. I think I'm done. With that rant anyway.
I guess I'll stop now, as its getting relatively late and I wanted to actually get some stuff done today. I just really hope I can accomplish all that I want to do in the next few weeks.
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