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ghanimasun) wrote2003-07-19 05:45 pm
ghanimasun) wrote2003-07-19 05:45 pm
my feet are sore
Well a while ago I got back from a hike. I got up at like 7am to go on a hike with some of the other Physics REU students, and the professor who is in charged of the Physics REU. It was my first real hike, and it was at least 6 or 7 miles (round trip), but my roommate says it was like 9. At first I was doing okay, but on the way back I was really beat. It was beautiful though, and I enjoyed it, and we saw this awesome waterfall that I took way too many pictures of. My feet really hurt now though and my legs are sore.
I've been sitting online since we got back.
Emily was online so I talked to her (as she's not been online lately because she's doing summer stuff too) and I talked to Jess some too. I kind of expressed to both of them how I felt like we weren't really close friends anymore and how I felt like I didn't really know them that well. Jess is really frustrating though, because sometimes she is very noninformative and nonresponsive. She'll just say "ohh" all the time, and rarely offers any information or thoughts of her own unless I specfically ask. Which is really frustrating and disheartening sometimes. Emily is much more responsive sometimes, which can make things smoother.
I really just need to learn how to be a friend again. To be a better friend. And I'm thinking its going to be a slow process.
*sigh*
I'm just so weak sometimes. I want to change, I want to do a bunch of things. But I just want to wait till I get home to do them. But really--why should I wait. If I want to change, I should just start now, not wait till I get home. The only thing I could really start here though I guess is for me to work like super hard on my presentation and make it kick ass. Although I think that that is unlikely to happen for many reasons. One being my damn advisor, who is leaving on Monday. The presentations aren't till Thursday. There's still so much I don't, and probably will never, understand, due in large part to him being here so infrequently. Also due in part to me not being more driven and pushy and asking him more questions. Although when he did explain stuff to me, I actually understood some of it. I used to feel bad and apprehensive about asking my professors for help, because I didn't want to take up their time. But I'm hoping now when I go back I'll learn to be more pushy and forward, and just ask them to explain everything and anything to me. This will probably be incredibly necessary if I plan on taking the GRE's and going to grad school. But alas, I still don't know about that.
I've been sitting online since we got back.
Emily was online so I talked to her (as she's not been online lately because she's doing summer stuff too) and I talked to Jess some too. I kind of expressed to both of them how I felt like we weren't really close friends anymore and how I felt like I didn't really know them that well. Jess is really frustrating though, because sometimes she is very noninformative and nonresponsive. She'll just say "ohh" all the time, and rarely offers any information or thoughts of her own unless I specfically ask. Which is really frustrating and disheartening sometimes. Emily is much more responsive sometimes, which can make things smoother.
I really just need to learn how to be a friend again. To be a better friend. And I'm thinking its going to be a slow process.
*sigh*
I'm just so weak sometimes. I want to change, I want to do a bunch of things. But I just want to wait till I get home to do them. But really--why should I wait. If I want to change, I should just start now, not wait till I get home. The only thing I could really start here though I guess is for me to work like super hard on my presentation and make it kick ass. Although I think that that is unlikely to happen for many reasons. One being my damn advisor, who is leaving on Monday. The presentations aren't till Thursday. There's still so much I don't, and probably will never, understand, due in large part to him being here so infrequently. Also due in part to me not being more driven and pushy and asking him more questions. Although when he did explain stuff to me, I actually understood some of it. I used to feel bad and apprehensive about asking my professors for help, because I didn't want to take up their time. But I'm hoping now when I go back I'll learn to be more pushy and forward, and just ask them to explain everything and anything to me. This will probably be incredibly necessary if I plan on taking the GRE's and going to grad school. But alas, I still don't know about that.