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oh what a weekend
Jun. 19th, 2005 09:38 pmsaturday i worked 12 hours total.
productive, huh?
it sucked a lot.
but luckily it was my last day at eckerd and my last day in easypay at nco. they transferred ("promoted") me to a new section. tomorow i start training, although i have to work 8 hours for that. which isnt something i particularly want to do, but at least training should be easy. although--three whole day sof training for a job that is supposedly EASIER than what i am doing? what the hell. thats not cool. i should be getting a raise though but whatever it is it wont be that much to me! unless its like 4 dollars or something! which i know, it is not.
today we went to my cousins for fathers day. it was okay, nothing spectacular.
i get so pissed off easliy these days. so depressed and frustrated about everything. any little hting can depress me or upset me. i dont know why. nothing makes me feel good. well i'm glad to be out of eckerd. but thats a small good in a day to day of bad. not tha tmy life sucks, but i am depressed and so, well im depressed. everything sucks anyway.
i want to go out to california mor eand more. well usually....it varies.
but travis wanted me out there for his birthday bu tnow hes saying oh we might not have enough money or anything. he frustrates me so much sometimes. i dont know why i get angry so easily. i odnt know what the hell is oging on ever. almost every day this week i talked to him at work and he said he would try to call me when he got home from work. but of every day this week, he never called me from home. until today after i wrote him an email asking him to call. i understand hes busy and stuff, but hell our 19 month anniversary went by and we didnt evne talk to each other that day. i tried calling him the past two days but he wasnt there. anyway its not a big deal, just not my favorite thing in the world either.
i'm so unhappy.
i dont know if that will ever change, no matter where i go.
i dont even remember what its like to be with travis, to know how happy that would make me.
*sigh*
productive, huh?
it sucked a lot.
but luckily it was my last day at eckerd and my last day in easypay at nco. they transferred ("promoted") me to a new section. tomorow i start training, although i have to work 8 hours for that. which isnt something i particularly want to do, but at least training should be easy. although--three whole day sof training for a job that is supposedly EASIER than what i am doing? what the hell. thats not cool. i should be getting a raise though but whatever it is it wont be that much to me! unless its like 4 dollars or something! which i know, it is not.
today we went to my cousins for fathers day. it was okay, nothing spectacular.
i get so pissed off easliy these days. so depressed and frustrated about everything. any little hting can depress me or upset me. i dont know why. nothing makes me feel good. well i'm glad to be out of eckerd. but thats a small good in a day to day of bad. not tha tmy life sucks, but i am depressed and so, well im depressed. everything sucks anyway.
i want to go out to california mor eand more. well usually....it varies.
but travis wanted me out there for his birthday bu tnow hes saying oh we might not have enough money or anything. he frustrates me so much sometimes. i dont know why i get angry so easily. i odnt know what the hell is oging on ever. almost every day this week i talked to him at work and he said he would try to call me when he got home from work. but of every day this week, he never called me from home. until today after i wrote him an email asking him to call. i understand hes busy and stuff, but hell our 19 month anniversary went by and we didnt evne talk to each other that day. i tried calling him the past two days but he wasnt there. anyway its not a big deal, just not my favorite thing in the world either.
i'm so unhappy.
i dont know if that will ever change, no matter where i go.
i dont even remember what its like to be with travis, to know how happy that would make me.
*sigh*
