confusion

I can't help but feel I'm falling apart. Slipping away.
I don't know what's wrong with me, but something isn't good at all.
I skipped my only class today, slept it and ate lunch.
I haven't done anything productive today. I can't tear myself away from the bloody computer.
I have this huge philosophy paper due on Monday, and I haven't really done anything for it. Maybe thats part of the reason I feel so awful. I hate writing papers. My mind just simply does not work that way, and I shouldn't be forced through this torture.
I can't think logically or order thoughts in such a coherent manner that they present a reasonable argument.
I can write what I'm thinking, and bitch about my problems, but that's it.
All I want to do is sleep and hide away from the entire world.
Just curl up and stop.
Stop thinking, worrying, fantasizing, hurting, wondering, caring.
It really wouldn't seem to matter if I did that or not.
Oh, no....I'm in one of those "nothing matters" moods.
Well, duh.
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.
Why do I feel so unalive and empty?
Why do I want to hide and distance myself from everything?
Why doesn't anything matter to me anymore?
What is wrong with me????
I just want it all to stop!

I simply don't know what to do.