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ghanimasun) wrote2003-06-04 03:21 am
ghanimasun) wrote2003-06-04 03:21 am
ramblings from the physics building in athens
I think I've walked more in the past three days that I walked the entire month I was at home this summer. Yesterday and today I walked the long trek to Subway, yeesh. I better be in shape by the end of the frelling summer. I might go to the gym tomorow morning, since my advisor isn't even going to be here, I can go to the gym, then get here when I feel like it and try to do what he told me to do. But I pretty much don't know what I'm doing or what *any* of it means. I've been readign the papers he gave me and my physics book, but I am still at a loss for what we are doing. I just dont understand science! I don't know why they picked me. They must have been smoking crack to think, hey this girl looks like she knows whats going on, lets get her to come here and work on some project she'll never understand.
The only person from the REU that I've talked to today is my roommate; I haven't really seen anyone else today much. Another REU moved in today, blah more people. I seem to be destined to be a loner. I have never once really been part of a group. Well, ok, maybe once, I was, in band in high school, I was then. But it was different dynamics and different types of people. I don't know if I'll ever be part of the group here. I hope that I am though, because I would imagine it would be a lot nicer than being totally left out and alone all the time.
I hope a lot too that I will be able to understand the project I'm working on and that my advisor has patience and doesnt hate me for being such a dumbass. I think he's explained some stuff to me like three or four times and I still don't have a clue as to what he's talking about.
I think I really long to be part of a group or fit in somewhere. I don't really feel like I fit in anywhere now at all. I'm an outsider everywhere, and I just long to be part of something, of a group, people who have similar interests and get a long with me and interact with me!
Ah, still no internet in my room, I'm in the physics building where I work so that I can get online. Tomorrow my advisor isn't even going to be here, so who knows what time I'll drag my ass over here to do stuff.
I just hope things get better, more interesting and I understand things 100x better than I do now!
The only person from the REU that I've talked to today is my roommate; I haven't really seen anyone else today much. Another REU moved in today, blah more people. I seem to be destined to be a loner. I have never once really been part of a group. Well, ok, maybe once, I was, in band in high school, I was then. But it was different dynamics and different types of people. I don't know if I'll ever be part of the group here. I hope that I am though, because I would imagine it would be a lot nicer than being totally left out and alone all the time.
I hope a lot too that I will be able to understand the project I'm working on and that my advisor has patience and doesnt hate me for being such a dumbass. I think he's explained some stuff to me like three or four times and I still don't have a clue as to what he's talking about.
I think I really long to be part of a group or fit in somewhere. I don't really feel like I fit in anywhere now at all. I'm an outsider everywhere, and I just long to be part of something, of a group, people who have similar interests and get a long with me and interact with me!
Ah, still no internet in my room, I'm in the physics building where I work so that I can get online. Tomorrow my advisor isn't even going to be here, so who knows what time I'll drag my ass over here to do stuff.
I just hope things get better, more interesting and I understand things 100x better than I do now!