yadnom

[ghanimasun]

I've had a headache off and on all day. Work was boring as fuck. I got my taxes done today, and got stuck with someone who was very slow and inexperienced and it ended up taking just about two hours. I really need the money I'm getting back, just to pay my bills for the next two weeks, to say nothing of actually paying on some of my credit cards I've been living on for the past few weeks. I sort of wanted to do something productive after work, but when my taxes took so long, by the time I got home, I didn't feel like trying so I just whittled away the hours online mostly on youtube. I really want to try to get in shape, but it feels so futile, so pointless, and utterly impossible. So I just drink some and eat too much junk. Because it doesn't matter anyway.
Did I mention I have a headache?
I guess I'll go to sleep soon. Usually it just feels like I come home to waste away the time when I'm not at work. And at work I think of all this other stuff I could be doing at home. And of course when I get to my apartment, I just don't feel like doing a damned thing. So I am stuck in this cycle of being fat, lazy, bored, uninspired and very lonely.
The weekends are the only thing I'm looking forward to anymore.