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ghanimasun) wrote2007-02-20 12:39 pm
ghanimasun) wrote2007-02-20 12:39 pm
there is a light that never goes out
well travis's grandfather died so we are headed up to williamsport for a few days. we had to rent a car too, because we weren't confident enough in our car to make it. and that would really crappy if we broke down half way up to the funeral.
on renting a car: well i ended up paying at over 3times more than i had intended on it. enterprise, the only one that doesnt charge you for being under 25 was sold out of cars. so yes, there are still things that you can't do under 25. we can rent a car, and we did, but we had to pay an extra 20$$$$ a day. wtf? plus they didn't have any economy sized cars, so we had to get a better car. however, after paying a ton, the rental car is damn fine. if i had a car like that every day i wouldn't mind driving as much. it is sweet. its not the car itself, but the fact that it is so damned new and has so many nice features (yeah, like a heater!). any new car would bejust as nice. so i am going to try to enjoy this fine piece of car while we are travelling all day. hell, i might even offer to drive some. it makes our car look so pathetic. makes me reconsider trading it in again, as well.
well i'm sure the whole funeral won't be too fun. another shitty thing is they had the viewing yesterday but we didn't find out in time so we completely missed it. and they're cremating him so travis won't even get to see him.
and of course for me, this brings up all the feelings from my own grandfather's death almost a year ago. and i know i haven't really dealt with it at all. and i can't even talk about it without crying. so i will probably be sad on my own, thinking about my own grandfather. as i've never met travis's grandfather.
he wasn't sure if he wanted me to go with him, which i can understand. but in the end he decided he wanted me to go. i am sort of glad for that because i get to be there for him. which i think he might need, but i dunno. and also because maybe random travelling with sort of inspire me or push me towards our moving somewhere else and starting our lives finally.
i've been stuck in such an incredible rut, completely unable to climb out of it on my own.
on renting a car: well i ended up paying at over 3times more than i had intended on it. enterprise, the only one that doesnt charge you for being under 25 was sold out of cars. so yes, there are still things that you can't do under 25. we can rent a car, and we did, but we had to pay an extra 20$$$$ a day. wtf? plus they didn't have any economy sized cars, so we had to get a better car. however, after paying a ton, the rental car is damn fine. if i had a car like that every day i wouldn't mind driving as much. it is sweet. its not the car itself, but the fact that it is so damned new and has so many nice features (yeah, like a heater!). any new car would bejust as nice. so i am going to try to enjoy this fine piece of car while we are travelling all day. hell, i might even offer to drive some. it makes our car look so pathetic. makes me reconsider trading it in again, as well.
well i'm sure the whole funeral won't be too fun. another shitty thing is they had the viewing yesterday but we didn't find out in time so we completely missed it. and they're cremating him so travis won't even get to see him.
and of course for me, this brings up all the feelings from my own grandfather's death almost a year ago. and i know i haven't really dealt with it at all. and i can't even talk about it without crying. so i will probably be sad on my own, thinking about my own grandfather. as i've never met travis's grandfather.
he wasn't sure if he wanted me to go with him, which i can understand. but in the end he decided he wanted me to go. i am sort of glad for that because i get to be there for him. which i think he might need, but i dunno. and also because maybe random travelling with sort of inspire me or push me towards our moving somewhere else and starting our lives finally.
i've been stuck in such an incredible rut, completely unable to climb out of it on my own.