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ghanimasun) wrote2006-08-27 10:59 pm
ghanimasun) wrote2006-08-27 10:59 pm
writing
why is it that everyone i know is a great writer? and half are currently writing specific things. why do i have to suck so much at writing? i don't particularly want to suck at writing, but I don't know how to improve mysef. Plus I don't enjoy writing, so there's that too.
Got a new job, its a temp job but it pays better. Its boring data entry office work. Travis works there too. Hopefully it will last for a while though, so we can make money off of it. I am going to start looking for a serious job now and then we can move once i find a real job. its strange to think about that suddenly. I'm so messed up from living at home again, the idea of moving and that change and independence is incredibly exciting, tantalizing and exotic. it seems so far away though. i'm anxious for it, even though its so far away. but i hadnt even thought about it at all till now and now i realize how much i want it.
its depressing for me that school starts tomorow. i wish i was in school. i feel so stupid. i dont feel like i can do anything in astronomy, unless i go back to school. but i know i can't do well on the gres and i have no confidence that i would succeed in grad school.
i'm so lost and i'm so depressed.
and so scared of everything.
Got a new job, its a temp job but it pays better. Its boring data entry office work. Travis works there too. Hopefully it will last for a while though, so we can make money off of it. I am going to start looking for a serious job now and then we can move once i find a real job. its strange to think about that suddenly. I'm so messed up from living at home again, the idea of moving and that change and independence is incredibly exciting, tantalizing and exotic. it seems so far away though. i'm anxious for it, even though its so far away. but i hadnt even thought about it at all till now and now i realize how much i want it.
its depressing for me that school starts tomorow. i wish i was in school. i feel so stupid. i dont feel like i can do anything in astronomy, unless i go back to school. but i know i can't do well on the gres and i have no confidence that i would succeed in grad school.
i'm so lost and i'm so depressed.
and so scared of everything.