pointless and stupid blabbing

[ghanimasun]

If i don't post this now, I probably never will. The majority of this I wrote a couple months ago.  Mostly it's just me whinging about how hard it is to be a shipper for me. Seriously. It's pathetic. Don't bother reading!
 

I now sort of understand why I generally don't ship (much at all or) non canon pairings. Because it is frustrating. And annoying.

Because I am already too invested in the ship. I blame fanfic entirely.

 

I can say with what feels like some actual truth, that this is the first (significant) time I've been very invested in a ship that was in a show while it was still airing. It's especially frustrating to be invested in a ship that there is little hope that it will become canon. The most I can hope for is for canon not to invalidate the possibility of it too much.

(The only other times I can think of when I was very invested in a live ships are Buffy/Spike. But I didn't start watching BtVSlive until mid s6 and I wasn't really too involved with the fandom at that point so I don't think it really counts. And of course there's Farscape but I never worried about John/Aeryn not being a couple. The show made it clear how important they were as a couple, so I didn't worry about them too much in that respect. Also Kara/Sam on Battlestar Galactica. But there was so much shit going on in that show it wasn't generally a main focus, especially when I was too busy complaining about everything bby the end of the series.) (Okay and also 11/River, but that ship is still so undefined I don't think it counts? I dunno).

 

(There was some wank (or what counts as wank coming from me) I wrote about Irene Adler in here, but I deleted it. No point getting too concerned about it yet (they haven't even said who's going to play her yet). But let's just say I have next to no hope I will be happy with her, because I am pretty sure that is the episode Moffat is writing. I'm not saying he's horrible or anything. I just don't have high hopes for him.)

 

I did consider taking a break from the Sherlock fanfic, so I wouldn't be so otp shippy feeling when it comes back, and therefore less likely to be emotionally disappointed if I don't like what happens. I also can't figure out why I am so interested in reading so much fanfic for this show. Like I wonder why I'm not sick of it yet. I still want to read MOAR. (Granted I may lay off it for a few days, but I generally read a fair amount every week at the very least.) Which is so bizarre for me. I've never read significant amounts of fanfic bfeore. Especially for a show that consists of less than six hours of canon. (But then again, maybe that's why there's so much fanfic; there is so much to fill in about the characters and story that the show has not provided yet. So people can go practically anywhere they want with it.) (And they have).  The fandom produces a surprising amount of fanfic and with still a good frequency. I'm grateful for that.

 
I sometimes read posts about how people don't want the ship to actually be canon (as a romantic ship). I dunno if that is because of their feelings/fondness for the characters in their original incarnations or what. But they say they prefer just a sort of bromance (god i hate that word so very much) or close friendship to only be canon. I...I can't understand that at all. Maybe it's because I've never been in this situation before (shipping so hard, shipping non canon slash) that I really actually definitely specifically do want  S/J to be canon romance.
Maybe part of it is just people being so sick of slashers/shippers and only wanting every relationship ever to be shippy on tv shows. I can understand people being frustrating with fans always wanting to slash two dudes together and just make them have sexy-times. I get that that can burn you out on the shipping/shashing in general. I don't have that issue, because I usually stay away from that sort of thing (or just read canon slash, Jack/Ianto or Brian/Justin). But I have read enough fics - long plotty fics - of S/J romance that work wonderfully. I don't want it just for the appeal of the sexytimes, I want it for the relationship, for the complicated stuff that it would bring up. Romance doesn't ruin a friendship. It doesn't enhance one necessarily, it's just a different type of bond. I would love it if the show at least hinted strongly at it, if they didn't want to go through with it completely (for fear of making it a "gay show" perhaps? See also- Doctor Who and the 'gay agenda'.)

 

And as usual, I end up posting late at night so I can hit post and scamper off to bed and not have to deal with the consequences that I just posted my thoughts! In public! Where other people will actually possibly read them!
Also I'm just a bit tired so I suspect a significant portion of this entire post does not make sense.