whats been going on

Well my life has been pretty dull lately. Still in Georgia and all, but nothing spectacular happening. I haven't really done much of anything with the people here. No news or anything in regards to the guy I like. I ask him to do things sometimes and he does. But the fact that he never asks me to do anything and doesn't ever seem to seek me out or be that interested in spending time with me kind of hints to me that he's not really interested or wanting to spend time with me. We only have three weeks left. I don't really figure I'll ever see these people again (at least not in any significant way) so I do want to spend as much time with him as possible, but I doubt that anything more will happen, besides going out to eat with a group and him happening to be in it. But who knows really.
For the fouth of July, many people here went home or went other places. Two girls from the microbiology REU program that I have befriended invited my roommate and I to go to the beach with them, so we did. Friday we left for Savannah and we returned last (saturday) night. Overall it was a pretty nice trip. Didn't have any major driving problems. We spent time a the beach Friday evening and Saturday afternoon. We saw dolphins in the ocean (they were really far away though, but it was still exciting). And I actually went in the water this time. Not like super far, but I was still in there. The saltwater is nasty I discovered. And everytime there was the thought that there was osme fish or something near us, I would clear out immediately. I really don't care for the idea of being in the water with sea-life all around me. But there really wasn't much where we were and I just tryed to put it out of my mind for the most part. The beach was pretty, the ocean was awesome. But it was not, in my opinion, spectacular. I think when I went to the beach before, in New Jersey it was somewhat prettier. I guess I'm really picky. But nonetheless I really enjoyed it.
Because of my roommate, Cece, I've been reading the Harry Potter books. So thats what I've been doing in most of my free time recently. Like I said I havent really been doing as much with other people as before. Although I have been hanging out with the 2 girls we went to the beach with some (like today we went to the movies). But I've definitely been reading a lot of Harry Potter. I'm near the beginning of the fourth book now. I'm really longing to see the movies now too.
I've made all these plans of things I want to do when I get back home and in the upcoming school year. But who knows, who knows when I will actually start doing some of the many things I plan.
Who knows if I will ever become this other person in my head. The woman that I imagine that I want to be, but who is nowhere near the person I actually am. Which of these is the real me? The person I act like, or the person I want to be? Which should I work on more? I wish I could just motivate myself enough to become what I want, to do what I want.