Tomorrow I fly!

Well its like 2am, the night before I am flying to Georgia. I am barely thinking about what I am going to be doing when I get there ormy job really, all I am thinking about is all the stuff that goes into trying to fly! I have to switch planes once, and I am worried that I am goign to miss something or get totally lost! Eep.
Plus the whole idea of flying is scary to me in itself, as I am afraid of heights. I'm not really realizing or thinking about the fact that I'll be in Georgia tomorrow, in less than 12 hours really! Mostly I'm just thinkign about the sleep I wont be getting and the airport stuff. So much stuff! Its so much work, argh. Maybe it won't be as much as I'm making it out to be.
I have no idea what to expect in Georgia, I have no real plans for it. I'm just trying to get there and then I'll just let it all come as it does. I'm trying not to be worried. I have to go, tho, because I still have to finish packing. Yes, thats right, 2 am and I still have to finish packing. Ack. I hate getting up early.
I hope I don't die on the flight, and I hope everything goes smoothly in Georgia. Whenever I have some time there I will probably write a bunch of stuff about my adventures on here, but I don't know when that will be!
But soon, I will be in the state of Georgia.

GREETINGS FROM GEORGIA

Guess who is in Georgia? Yeah, you're right. It's me. :)
I am lucky to be writing this now; I don't have internet in my room; my roommate decided to check the labs to see if someone left any computers signed on that we coudl get on, and luckily they did.
My first plane ride was on a plane that wasnt even five feet wide inside. I didn't imagine it woudl be so tiny! I was scared/excited/and everythign else at first. I was laughing out of fear and enjoyment as it took off. It was weird. And shaky. And my ears were all weird and stuff. I can't say I didn't enjoy it. I think I would adore flying if it weren't for the pesky possible crashing and dying part of it. I looked out the window most of the flight to pittsburgh, it was neat to see stuff from that viewpoint. After wandering around in the Pittsburgh airport, getting some food, and waiting, I boarded the big plane. It was much smoother in general. I don't like it when the planes turn tho. I'm afraid the wind will somehow sweep up underneath the wing and flip the plane over or something. I also dozed on the plane for maybe a few minutes. I mean actually fell asleep--which is weird for me, but it was probably because I only got four hours of sleep the night before. After wandering a bit over the Atlanta airport, wondering if I was even close to the right place to find the ppl, I finally found the lady I was supposed to. They were picking up 3 ppl from the airport. And then we had to drive over an horu to get to Athens!
I realize I immediately stereotype people when I have contact with them for like 10 minutes. Although I suppose I had already stereotyped the one girl a little before I even got there. But so far she's fit the stereotype well. It's so bad of me I know, but I've practically got everyone here in some generalization in my head already. Which is bad! They aren't accurate, but its just what I do. I am hoping I will actually get to knwo these people to dispell the things I generalized about them and find out who they really are. Although I doubt I will be talking to anyone that much. I said maybe 5 words the entire carride to Athens. I talked to my roommate, but that's about it. Its probably just because it's a one-on-one situation, which I do better at then groups anyday.
We had one group get together with some food and introducing and general thigns gone over. There are only two other girls in the physics program, plus my roommate who is in the astronomy program, but she's the only one so she will do stuff with us probably. The other programs havent gotten here yet.I didn't really say a word, besides my name, at the get together, thus falling into my destined role of, haha, of a watcher! But I think talking in front of the entire group of new people would have been a little much for me regardless of any progress or desire to progress I have. I need to start slow and work my way up. I need one on one interactions with people to get to know them all some; maybe that would help me to open up with them as a group.
I am a little concerned about startign work tomorow. I haven't read one SINGLE thing that my advisor guy told me to read. I have NO CLUE what's going on. My roommate is lookign up a bunch of stuff for hers now; I feel all guilty about it. But my roommate, who is a freshman, younger than me, has had tons of research experience, she's in all these astronomy clubs and stuff. I'm like such a dumbass in comparsion. But luckily I don't mind/care.
I wasn't afraid of the height on the planes at all really. I mean at first yeah, I was afraid of everything and gripping the seat for teh first ten minutes, but the end of the first flight I was glued to teh window. It was awesome and interesting and compelling. And it didn't really feel real to me anyway. I mean I realized on some levels that yeah I'm in a plane high above the ground, but I dont know. It just didn't affect me if I didn't let it and I was just looking at pretty stuff, like on tv. I'm grateful for all the stuff that's felt real to me today. As its not been a lot that has really affected me recently. So I enjoy and appreciate it when it does. But it's so little that can touch me still. I long for connection and emotion. But I know it'll take time. I just hope I get more than what I have had recently. Because it's hard going on alone so much.
Blah, anyway.
I'm worried about tomorow, but still, I cannot bring myself to read anything about what I'm going to be working. I really have absolutely no motivation or discipline whatsoever. And hey, I seem to be okay with that, so...um....it works.
Blah.
I hate being stupid :(